Blog archive July 2010
19.07.10 / 01 / very overdue catch-up post
i haven't done much posting since last september, and i've been meaning to do this particular post since april - here's why. work took a heavy turn in october, very long hours and huge emotional stress, many sleepless nights and days of acute anxiety. i managed to complete the project, but christmas wasn't enough time to recover, and in january i was heading into a new work situation i wasn't happy about. matters came to a head in mid-february, the doctor signed me off work for a couple of weeks and it was clear i had come very close to a complete mental and physical breakdown. indeed there had been times last autumn when a heart attack seemed likely - i had really burned myself out.
however, my crisis caused instant changes in my work situation that might have taken months to achieve otherwise [not that i'm advocating nervous breakdown as a strategy, but it worked for me... ;) ]. feeling liberated, i bounced back surprisingly quickly and have huge energy for my current project - just as well because it needs it. it helps that the project that nearly killed me last year turned out to be a major success.
so having not posted much for six months because i was miserably overworked and tired, i'm not posting much now because i'm happily overworked and tired. i have, however, learned the value of time off - seeing how much energy my enforced break gave me, i'm listening to my mind and body more to gauge when to rest. in my job it's never a good time to take a holiday - right now i'm off work because i felt i needed to be, but there are now key meetings that i would like to be at which have fallen into this formerly blank space in my diary. i had to postpone my leave and fly to geneva last monday for one more meeting, but at least that set me free to go for a while.
my breakdown did give me the time to rebuild smallfire.org and smallritual.org, set up on facebook, and generally try to restart my online life - but i haven't achieved much since then! that's what holidays are for...
10.07.10 / 01 / geneva panoramas
A couple of panoramas of Lake Geneva, on a hot July evening. It's nice here.
Full circle view outside the Hotel Kempinski. The white peak of Mont Blanc visible in the far distance beyond the Jet d'Eau.
Full circle view from the lighthouse by the lido.
Comments:
So sorry to hear of all this but I am glad to hear things are looking up. Something must be in the air as I was having a similar experience that has started to turn around (thank goodness). Peace ...
becky garrison